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What I Learned From Dying: Still going

Dave Taylor

I’m still going, literally and figuratively.

I’m still going to New York City later this month, I’m still going to be married to the love of my life Jamie next month and I’m still going, living on despite prognoses to the contrary.

Not many believed I’d still be going at all.

At my most recent chemotherapy treatment one of the nurses told me that after my previous treatment I seemed so dire that the nurses all gathered together, read my most recent column aloud and prayed together. And they cried. They were that certain that they’d never see me again. Just hearing that made me tear up and it reminded me of not only how far I’ve gone down the cancer path, but how fragile my remaining life is.

Then the very next week – this week – I began feeling worse, with stomach pains and general bad feelings. That’s scary because it’s small pains like that that have led to two extended hospital stays where I’ve not been expected to live.

And my new chemotherapy is the one my doctor warned me will make me susceptible to things just like that.

I’m nervous, but I’m pressing on. What other choice do I have?

The Bible says God didn’t create us with a spirit of fear and I know that he will be with me every step of whatever lies ahead.

Sometime I just have to look for the small victories.

Tonight I attended my soon-to-be-stepson’s cello recital, along with my trusty cup to puke in. I felt the strong need to spit up right between songs where the whole Brownsburg High School Auditorium was fully silent. I whispered to myself, “start playing dang it” and lo and beholdthey did. It was great timing and I could wretch along with the strings all the while going largely unnoticed by those around me.

Of course that was no miracle, but it was nice nonetheless.

This month i’ looking forward to my trip to NYC to stay in the beautiful, modern TWA Hotel, and looking forward to choosing my suit for my wedding. My hair is falling out so I’ll need a suit to distract from that, so maybe some plaid is in order.

By Dave Taylor



  1. Jeff kendall on March 9, 2022 at 11:07 pm

    May god bless you an your family

  2. Kelly Vanover on March 10, 2022 at 5:59 am

    Continuing prayers from me my family and the Hancock county Gideons

  3. Scott Fitzgerald on March 10, 2022 at 6:42 am

    So happy you’re going to that Big Town!!! Have fun!!!

  4. Karen Calvert on March 10, 2022 at 8:49 am

    I am so happy that you and Jamie picked out your wedding date. I know there are so many of us that feel like we really know you and Jamie and wish we could attend your Wedding. We will all be there in spirit. Blessings.

  5. Kenny and Donna Morris on March 10, 2022 at 3:28 pm

    Praying you make it to the big Apple, and have a glorious wedding! Praying for you both.

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