stage 4 metastatic esophageal cancer
What I learned from dying; Sometimes I forget I’m dying
Sometimes I forget that I’m dying. Sure, I feel super tired almost always, I spit up foul smelling bile all day and my hands and feet are numb, but that just equals sick in my mind. It’s easy to forget that those things are signs of my slow departure from this earth. I’m pretty sure…
Read MoreWhat I learned from dying; What kind of old man would I have been?
I often used to say that one thing that’s worse than getting old is not having the opportunity to get old, and now it seems I’m not going to get that chance myself. I’ve always wondered what kind of older man I would be. I planned to be a cool old guy, dressing in cool…
Read MoreWhat I learned from dying; I put a ring on it
I have big news this week. I got engaged! To paraphrase Beyonce, I liked it so I put a ring on it. Last Thursday, on the one-year anniversary of my girlfriend Jamie and I officially becoming a couple, I asked her to marry me and she replied with a resounding yes. Now the ask wasn’t…
Read MoreWhat I learned from dying; I’m supposed to be dead/I’m a miracle
As I was pushed outside last Saturday in a wheelchair, the bright, hot sun hit my face and I couldn’t help but get a little emotional. I wasn’t supposed to see another bright sunny day and I hadn’t really thought about it until then. You see, the Saturday before that my doctors were certain I…
Read MoreWhat I learned from dying; I feel like I can’t do anything anymore
Legendary comic Norm Macdonald died this week after a secret battle with and undisclosed form of cancer. I found it very interesting that he chose to keep his diagnosis a secret from his fans and so many who knew him but in many way I completely understood. “He never wanted the diagnosis to affect the…
Read MoreWhat I learned from dying; Nothing will ever be the same
Dave Taylor pre-cancer / Dave Taylor today The other day my girlfriend Jamie asked me how I feel my chemo treatments are going, but then asked me a bigger much more difficult question: how do I think my cancer story will play out? For those seeing this column for the first time, I was…
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